Well, my GRE is real close now, 2 weeks to go. And I'm killing time again! The closer an exam gets the more I waste time, a habit since school. This is a very weird kind of anxiety. And its killing!
I was always this last minute prep sort. It usually worked for me. Last minute pressure is when I'd actually study and study wisely (that is omitting a great chunk of material and praying it doesn't show up in the exam). And I had a good going, managed to top most of the time during high school. Topping wasn't my goal, it just happened,and I wasn't complaining :P ,though Mom always thought it was unfair to the kids who slogged 'sooo much'! She'd always wonder if I cheated during exams! (for the record, I din't)
But anyway, it only lasted till high school. Once into college, that charm steadily started wearing off and I scored pathetic in my medical entrance. My grades were above average alright but it was only coz my college and coaching class had these geniuses around me so with that environment around, I fared well, but not well enough.
After the bummer med entrance, I turned to engineering. Good start in sem 1 (by sloggin this time), and then over-confidence and steady decline. And then job placement was near, and I wasn't anywhere upto mark to get in, so I slogged again for aptitude test and got in! And then the graph started rising up again and all was well.
2 years of oh-so-busy-with-job and no-touch-with-books later, I'm again pitched against this GRE prep. Must say I haven't quite used the prep months too well so far and now it's the 'narrow tunnel' time! I'm getting the med entrance jitters again, and pray I somehow overcome the exam-lag-curse and and power up and score (and soar) high! And fast.
Will the curse end?
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I guess I was partly responsible for the downward trajectory of the curve after Sem I :p
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