Engineering, done.
Job exp., 2 years, check. Resignation, check.
GRE, on.
Break downs, check.
Many birthdays, parties, sleepovers, sleep over (as in 'too much'), all check.
Too many movies, way too many, check.
Too many TV series, check.
End to the silver screen Potter legacy, sigh.
More novels, check.
Shifting residences after 23 years of fixated love to one place.sigh.
New Age ancient philosophy, The Secret, The Power, check.
I am now at the crossroads of life.
My career is at a standstill as i take time off to ponder over and under-prepare for the GRE.
My friends have been tried and tested and tried again to see who can really handle me and whom I can handle. Some have fallen apart. Closest.
Been sitting home since 4 months and don't see any significant personal growth in the time I've taken off..oh, did i mention we were 'busy' moving homes?
As more ramblings than those I've written above float about in my head while I try to concentrate on the single most important issue of the moment (the GRE ofcourse!), I wonder which way I'm going. It really is difficult to pick up and move on when I have my ego attached to the way every living cell in my body functions, every thought my mind beholds, every situation it foretells or shapes, every memory it churns up and shows.
So it really comes down to a tipping point, doesn't it?
The choice between who I am,my ego,my self... and who I want to become.
Ironically, the latter is what I already was before my present state of self. So...how does one find oneself again?
Job exp., 2 years, check. Resignation, check.
GRE, on.
Break downs, check.
Many birthdays, parties, sleepovers, sleep over (as in 'too much'), all check.
Too many movies, way too many, check.
Too many TV series, check.
End to the silver screen Potter legacy, sigh.
More novels, check.
Shifting residences after 23 years of fixated love to one place.sigh.
New Age ancient philosophy, The Secret, The Power, check.
I am now at the crossroads of life.
My career is at a standstill as i take time off to ponder over and under-prepare for the GRE.
My friends have been tried and tested and tried again to see who can really handle me and whom I can handle. Some have fallen apart. Closest.
Been sitting home since 4 months and don't see any significant personal growth in the time I've taken off..oh, did i mention we were 'busy' moving homes?
As more ramblings than those I've written above float about in my head while I try to concentrate on the single most important issue of the moment (the GRE ofcourse!), I wonder which way I'm going. It really is difficult to pick up and move on when I have my ego attached to the way every living cell in my body functions, every thought my mind beholds, every situation it foretells or shapes, every memory it churns up and shows.
So it really comes down to a tipping point, doesn't it?
The choice between who I am,my ego,my self... and who I want to become.
Ironically, the latter is what I already was before my present state of self. So...how does one find oneself again?
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