Becoming Myself

"Here's how I became myself: mess, failure, mistakes, disappointments, and extensive reading; limbo, indecision, setbacks, addiction, public embarrassment, and endless conversations with my best women friends; the loss of people without whom I could not live, the loss of pets that left me reeling, dizzying betrayals but much  greater loyalty, and overall, choosing as my motto William Blake's line that we are here to learn to endure the beams of love."

Courtesy: http://www.oprah.com/spirit/How-To-Find-Out-Who-You-Really-Are-by-Anne-Lamott 

Yeah, almost there. Done and been through all of that. Somehow feels like I've already mentioned the same statement a few years ago to a close friend. Guess its double life-crises for me already! Stagnation within success, ambiguity within pursuit, ah, its almost time to become a poet.

Such is life dearies. Such is life.

On the Learning Curve: Philosophy

Secret. The Law of Attraction. Subconscious Mind. Atonement.

Being showered with hordes of teachers since past 2 years. Ask and ye shalt receive. Life questions and philosophy, The New Thought, all being bombarded at me from different sources. Truly enriching. Call it too much free time or too much non sense, I never seem to get enough of what I read. I read more, hear more (podcasts), see more (webcasts). Each author/teacher leads to more teachers, and the journey continues.

Rhonda Byrne, Esther Hicks, Eckhart Tolle, Richard Bach, Neale Donald Walsch, Jack Canfield, Jane Roberts, Randy Pausch, Charles Haanel, Bob Proctor, Wallace Wattles, Napolean Hill..... I can go on. And wow, to see so many names I've read on one topic, it amazes even me as I write this.What's amazing is how much these teachings intersperse in what we read of hear in mainstream media. In works of the likes of Oprah Winfrey, John Lennon, Dan Brown, J.K.Rowling, Ayn Rand and too many more. Din't really know I could read so much on a segment of Non-fiction that isn't even a story. A study. Learning in this 'field' truly interests, intrigues and grips me. Life comes a full circle (at age 24) when I'm consumed in this pursuit. 

As I imbibe it all in my way of life and living, hope I contribute my bit to the spread and awareness of the same as I move along. That, and a world steeped in peace and prosperity, is a dream most cherished and nurtured. Amen!

A Night to be blogged about

Using 'kal kare so aaj kar, aaj kare so ab' at all the wrong times, this is another post I couldn't wait till morning (afternoon in my case, I see no morning) to post. I'm down with a fever and them heavy med doses usually put me off like a baby, but have been amazingly awake all night, two nights straight.

Had one of those 'hyperactive mind runs a trillion movies' nights tonight. Widest range of topics that covered my brain in one night so far though! From Metallica's cancelled Delhi concert to Anil Kapoor striking gold with MI4, from how much time I should give to singular friends (thus preventing eventual rub off of singular views on me without me realising it, variety keeps me stable,i guess) to the Theory of Relativity.

If I could even just list all that ran through, this post would be my (or any blogger's) longest. And if I could elaborate on each topic, I'd never run out of posts for this blog! #thought to be noted. Instant counter thought, no kidding, how # has infact replaced double asterisks or ** for tagging.:P

And it so happens that hyperactive's insomniac dad was awake too, so post-retirement dad and post-resignation daughter (basically, jobless :D) bonded over 5am coffee cuppas, and singular brain movies got
exchanged vent! We had some groundbreaking discussions that never happened during light of day. Amazing experience.

Ooh and the enemy of the scene - Mom, wakes up to shoo us to bed! Off now, Mom's going to empty the rest of her fury when dad-daughter sleep soundly into important morning hours (though Dad still manages to wake up early somehow and teams up with Mom against me in waking me up in a most pestering manner with 'what will we do with a daughter like you' implications) while she's left alone in handling the house chores and visitors. Tsk, amazed how lil sis sleeps peacefully through all this action.

Good night-morning!